I am feeling quite good and motivated tonight although I can't say that about the week I have had! It definitely wasn't as good as week 1 but I am still happy with myself because instead of giving up completely and waiting until "Monday" to start again I just refocused that day and continued to try and make better choices.
My problem from the beginning of the week was my lack of planning. I organised my week so well for week 1 but this last week I ran out of time to do it properly last weekend so it just didn't work out. Plus i struggled from the beginning of the week (Monday and Tuesday) because I had my course in the city. I started off well but then all my old excuses and worries came flooding back and I went off the rail. My fear is when I am in situations like my course of working and I don't have the freedom to eat whenever I like I worry that I am going to not eat enough and start to feel sick and may even faint. Silly I know because its not like I'm starving myself but a similar thing has happened to me in the past. It was when I was doing a job as a camera operator. I rocked up to the job early afternoon to set up and I was expecting we would get fed before the show started. But this never happened. So that evening while I was filming I was communicating to the director, who was side stage of the theater, and I started to feel very faint and I asked him to bring me a drink asap, well shortly after I said that I did in fact pass out in front of the whole audience, very embarrassing . I was fine, but it was obviously dehydration. So since then I have always made sure I can eat wherever I'm going or I have a big meal beforehand.
So I wasn't too bad during the day of my course, however I would have gone over my 1200 calories, but I was still relatively ok with my eating. Until... Tuesday night came along and I finished my course at 5 in the city and had to rush back, pick up kids and go to calisthenics until 10.30. ( I think I mentioned this in my wednesday weigh in post) So again the fear came over me and I didn't want to just have a salad for dinner because I was worried I wouldn't "last" on just something healthy like that, so I went for the only thing I knew (which is terribly bad), fast food crap (Hungry Jacks to be exact). And yes I do admit it was sooooo yummy, but at the same time I felt so very guilty and sick at the same time.
But the new me woke up Wednesday morning and started fresh again :)
That is until Saturday!!! I was working (filming calisthenics) all day from 8am to 11pm. I started off well by eating porridge (instead of McDonalds like I normally do on my way to filming) and then for a snack I had sultanas and a banana (instead of chocolate and chips). But then in the afternoon once again I started to have this doubt of being hungry and sleep so I got some food from the bar there. I felt like calamari and thought it just came with salad but it came with chips and I just couldn't resist. Naughty me I know. But I feel I am slowly changing, slowly making better choices and not giving up just because I had one bad meal.
Today I woke up feeling all refreshed and ready to start a new day and I had a great day. Ate well and took my son on a bike ride and kicked the footy around with him, great bonding time with my son.
So that's another week gone and now I should get some sleep so I'm all refreshed once more and ready to go for another session doing the Thousand Steps in the morning!!!
*Below pictures are a copy of my meal plan and exercise plan. I know they could be better but already I feel so much more organised than I have ever been thanks to Michelle Bridges :)
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